"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."

-Henry David Thoreau

Friday, June 2, 2017

Car crash

Totaled the Pilot. I ran a red light while trying to listen to Zach and calm Terran down in the back. It didn't register that the light was red until I saw the Suburban coming into the intersection. I slammed on my brakes but she still hit me.

Turns out, it all was good. Biggest thing, nobody got hurt. I think we got more for our car than we would if we had tried to sell it. It forced us to get a new car, so now we wouldn't have two that are more than a decade old.

Terran had opinions about what car we got as a replacement.

Terran said, this time let's buy a race car. And it will be his. But mom will drive it since he can't but it will be his.

We looked at a white minivan and when we went back to look at a gray one (Zach insisted on the gray), he was insistent that we get the white. So I told him it was a batmobile that Batman dropped off there. It took some work but it convinced him that we got the cool one. Now we are in the minivan stage of life!

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Ogden half marathon

Long story about the Ogden marathon...I've wanted to do it for a long time so I decided to sign up just for a fun and refresher race to remind my body what a marathon feels like to prep for Big Cottonwood where I am trying to qualify for Boston this year. I've always heard it was pretty and was really excited to race it. My left hamstring started giving me trouble in February, and working with a PT to fix that and a cuboid syndrome on my left foot, I trained through the injuries. Zach was gone 3 out of the 4 months and I was proud after each long run. However, my hamstring wasn't getting better and since the big goal was this fall, I decided after my last 20 miler (hurt at 8 miles, decided to stop at 11, walked until 15.6) that I was going to run the half. After a lot of back and forth, deciding not to run at all, then deciding to still run the half, I ended up heading to Ogden by myself. We had a non-refundable hotel room and Zach supported me in thinking a night away would be nice. Although surrounded with stress over Kenna handling it well and stress over my hamstring, it was a wonderful getaway where I could just worry about myself for once.
Brock Johnson found me in the bus lines so we rode up together and hung out until the start. My plan was to run conservatively and enjoy the scenery, planning to walk as soon as my hamstring hurt. By mile 7 I decided to start alternating walking with jogging. I'm glad the course was so amazing because it is hard to slow down in a race. I took a few selfies and video called Zach and the kids to show them the race and waterfall to force myself to continue ur to be smart. I was able to run into the finish with a girl completing her first half when she ran up by me and said she wanted to stick with me to the finish. I finished in 2:11, my official slowest half, but I enjoyed the whole race. It's easily my favorite half. Brock cheered me in at the finish and we hung around to see our friends doing the full coming in. I was able to cheer Shannon on as she reached the BQ we both set our sights on this year. I loved my time to do something I love and although I was sad my full training didn't come to a full marathon finish, I know I made the better decision and have wonderful memories to go with it.

Thursday, May 18, 2017

11 months

Little Miss has started complaining loudly when Terran stops her, or takes her toys. She recently started saying DaDaaa and is so loud about it sometimes. She definitely communicates with us, just with noises instead of words. She understands words as well. She has started getting attached to stuffed animals and looks for them when we go to her room for nap. She still eats really well and I enjoy that blessing every day. However, she has developed tastes and also learned how to spit things out. So even if I get it in, she can just slip it right back out. It's usually less about flavor and more about mood.
When Mommy is around, she is a hard core nurser, but recently did ok overnight with just Zach and pumped bottles.
Her little personality is shining through strong these days. She is very happy and playful, and loves mischievous chase games. Ex: trying to get to the edge of the bed before we stop her, or the treadmill, or playing on the playset.
She started walking about a week after turning 11 months and gets better every day.

Monday, April 24, 2017

Southern Utah Half Marathon

Back in the racing world! I was planning to pace the Southern Utah half marathon but got a free entry a few days before and was able to cover my pacing spot. I wasn't sure what to expect since I had been planning to run at a 9:55 and wasn't sure what I was capable of. I've had a hamstring injury for months now and it has limited my speed work. I went in to it wanting to go fast and be in the 1:50 range. But, since time was not really that important, I ran by feel. It was hard, but great! Amanda was running as well. I started out fast on the downhill and kept checking on her because I thought she could have a fast race. I saw her not too far back around mile seven and decided to wait for her at mile nine. The last few miles were tough but fun as we pushed to stay ahead of the 1:50 pacers. She pulled ahead after a little sprint to stay ahead and I let her go because my hamstring was feeling it. I joined up with a lady with about half mile left and pushed each other in to the finish. I threw up.... First time right after a race but I didn't really get a good breakfast and my fueling wasn't the best. Overall, I completely enjoyed the course and loved the weather. I liked running fast and I ended up with a 1:49, Amanda's got 1:48 as a new PR!

Sunday, April 9, 2017

10 months

Kenna bug is so fun. She is trying hard to walk, but doesn't quite trust herself yet, so she always reaches for Mom's hand. She has learned to spit with her lips and is good at spitting things out that shouldn't be in her mouth, or food she doesn't want! Terran is her favorite person and she always wants to be around him. Mom is her snuggle bug and Dad is her special person she always lights up to.
She has started getting fiesty if you try to take something from her. She tries to get Terran going and the other night in the tub was extremely successful. She would squeal and splash, then wait for him to. He would. Back and forth, louder and louder. I finally had to just plug my ears and let them because they were laughing so hard!
She loves to sleep with Mom and screams bloody murder of you put her in her crib.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

St. Patty's Day

I was really excited about St. Patty's Day this year. One night for our bedtime story, I pulled up a YouTube video of a lady reading a leprechaun book. I'd been wanting to get some from the library but hadn't yet and that popped into my head. Terran was surprisingly into it. It explained how leprechauns can't help but get into mischief, even on the way to put a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. It was cute and set a base for us to talk about leprechauns for a few weeks. We were at my parents' visiting Lindsey, so I told Terran I thought the leprechauns would find us there. And they did! They tissue papered the hallways so Terran had to break through on his way out. They peed green in the toilet and left little footprints. Zach and Terran built a leprechaun trap the night before to try and catch him, but he used his magic to get out of the trap. He left treats behind for Terran though. His little footprints escaped through the kitty door. Terran followed them all the way and tried to find out where the leprechaun disappeared to. He was excited and explained what happened to me over and over!
This might be one of my new favorite holidays!

Monday, March 13, 2017


We followed Daddy down to Moab for his work to. He had just gotten back from two months in Missouri and we all didn't want to be apart again.

I showed Terran the hotel pool online before we left, and that was all he could think about. Upon arriving, he took Zach the straight away and they played for more than an hour. Zach said it was special hanging out with him when he was so happy and having so much fun. Terran asked to go multiple times each day, even though it was still a little cold. He was so excited we let him get in the hot tub! He also tried out new water tricks of going under with his mouth and nose covered and giving me a thumbs up. Looks like summer time should be a blast!

We went to Arches National Park one morning. Kenna was sleeping and Terran was begging to go back to the hotel and swim, but I convinced him to enjoy the park with me by letting him ride in the front seat and sharing my box of Bottlecaps. We stopped at a few cool landmarks, then got to where we could hike to some arches. We were the some of the first ones there, the sun came up while we were exploring, and it was a perfect morning. We enjoyed seeing rabbits and birds, and Kenna liked crawling around and trying to eat rocks. Terran tired out about 400 yards from our last arch, so stopped in the middle of the trail for an impromptu picnic. He didn't want to walk (his legs hurt, which is what he said all the time when he doesn't want to do something!) And Kenna no longer wanted to ride in the carrier, so Terran ride in the carrier in my back while helping with the backpack, and I held Kenna up front. It was hard!! We got a lot of comments on the way back about how I had a heavy load. There were two different guys who offered to help me, but I declined knowing full well my kids wouldn't let anyone else carry them! There were some truly beautiful scenes and I was so glad I made the effort to go.

One night we had a grocery store dinner in our hotel room, where we shared a rotisserie chicken with sides and berries and salad. Zach said I went full savage on him by eating with my fingers, but I was starving and the kids weren't going to wait or use a fork anyway!

The next day we went to a dinosaur place called Moab Giants. They had a playground and a dinosaur trail with life size replicas of probably a hundred dinos. They had signs telling of the subsidies so everyone I would check and Terran would guess if they were herbivores or carnivores. Then he would say whether or not they eat people. He lived digging in the sand looking for bones, as did Kenna. She was filthy but liked letting the sand fall through her fingers.

We were so happy to get to see Dad in the evenings, and he was so glad we came. He had missed his little kids so much while he was away, so it was extra fun watching him play with them!