"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."

-Henry David Thoreau

Thursday, November 29, 2012


My dad made the comment this year that Thanksgiving is just like Christmas...you wait all year for it and it is over in 15 minutes. It's true. BUT - having 5 days off to spend with your family is worth the wait. Plus, we had good food from Wednesday til Sunday, so I can't complain. However, I really can't believe how it came and went so quickly. We spent a lot of time just hanging out together, watching football, and chatting. I love that my dad was able to watch some good football, because he doesn't do it often, but it seems so good for a man's soul.

Scott spent almost the whole time with us. I can honestly say I was surprised because he is a hot commodity in the single world.
Zach and Scott bonded as they conquered the world on the computer. Three nights in a row I believe. I wonder what it would have been like to add Brad's geekiness to the mix....
We spent some time bringing up all our Christmas decor, spreading it out around the house, and finishing up the tree. I'm still looking for some perfect ribbon and non-ornament inserts though...
We went to the gym everyday. I love having that in common with my parents. We also did walks together around the neighborhood, scoping out any available lots for my parents to fall in love with so they can move up here. This was a hot topic, and my hopes are pretty high that it will work out one day. But, I can tell by the way my mom talks when we are discussing it that the time is not yet right for her. I'm thinking I will wait til our little baby gets here and see if he can work on convincing her. I think I have my dad convinced already though.

We did a little Christmas shopping. I got Zach a surprise and already have it under the tree!

On Sunday before church, I had my mom try to get a picture of Zach and me for a Christmas card. I don't know what it is about us two, but we really struggle to be photogenic. The one picture out of ten that I manage to like of myself just so happens to be the one picture Zach gets sick of smiling and does something crazy. My parents, on the other hand, looked great without even trying.
Towards the end when I knew that we pretty much had the best we could hope for, I threw out the sarcastic idea of throwing the leaves to pretend they were falling around us. Zach got pretty into it. I had to post several of the pics to successfully illustrate the absurdity and hilarity of this 30 second window of our life. Looking at these pictures reminds me why I am so happy with my handsome and oh-so-fun husband.

 I tried not to skip over Thankgiving too fast, but with putting up the tree early and the anticipation of seeing Brad's family at Christmas, I already can't wait for it to get here! Thanksgiving was great though and I am so glad there is a time set aside in the year to specifically focus on the things we are grateful for. 

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

32 Weeks

Don't mind this girl - she weighed in at 190 today. I'm still telling myself that my jacket and pants held some of that weight...But here's to 32 weeks!

If you can't tell by the gradual decline of attractiveness in my photos, I am indeed feeling pret-ty tired lately. I believe this is due to 1 - my rapidly growing and active child. 2 - my tossing and turning trying-to-get-comfortable nights. 3 - the wonderful cold that I got the weekend before Thanksgiving that likes to wake me up in the middle of the night with coughing fits and a dry throat. Fun!

However, I am very happy with my pregnancy and my baby. I'm guessing he is going to be 8+ lbs, because let's be honest - with Zach and I being the creators, how could he not be?
I have felt some pretty crazy movements this week. One time, I was sitting down with my large belly resting on my upper legs, when I felt a huge movement. Being early in the morning, I didn't actually register right away what it was and I freaked out. Then I realized it was my baby and I just had to laugh...
Scott has taken to calling him Terran every chance he gets. That is partly why I didn't want to tell people before because I think it is a little weird to call them by a name while they are still inside, and there is the chance that we could still change it. But, Scott does what he pleases and I actually really like it because it helps me think about it more to make sure it is the right name.

My sister-in-law B had her baby yesterday. Sandy was emailing us updates throughout the whole process, and it was so exciting. It caused a little bit of a problem though, because now I can't stop thinking about having our baby here too!

I'm thinking that in the next week or two I want to set up the crib, pack my hospital bag, and tour the maternity ward. These things have been on my list for a while (thanks to the helpful pregnancy blogs and websites) but I just haven't gotten around to them. But, time is ticking so I better start taking care of things...plus, it keeps me way excited but gives me stuff to do to pass the time.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

31 Weeks

I almost forgot what week I was on....just a sign of my pregnancy induced forgetfulness I suppose. In addition to forgetting the week I am on, I have:

*Introduced myself as someone else - totally on accident
*Put the eggs in the pantry
*Got out of the car and started to walk into the gym while the car was still running
*Gone grocery shopping and had to backtrack approx. 7 times. That never happens in my normal life.

Pregnancy brain really isn't the myth I always thought it was...

*Our baby's feet/elbows/hands poke out a lot more
*I wake up with headaches every day - I can't tell if that is something from pregnancy or if I need to see the chiropractor.
*I'm more tired and out of breath easier
*Starting to get anxious to buy all the necessities - I have been holding off because I can't decide on the big purchases and don't want to make too many small purchases because the girls at work mentioned doing a shower next month.
*Feeling pretty lucky because, for the most part, I feel pretty good. Of course I have the normal pregnancy complaints, but I am happy during the day and it could be so much worse, I am sure!
*My belly button is not very attractive. By the end of the night and after a big meal, it looks pret-ty stretched. I always thought that mine would never go from an innie to an outie, but it is definitely pushing the limits. We will see what nine more weeks does for it!

Friday, November 16, 2012

1 Year Anniversary for Z-Dub

Last night we celebrated Zach's one year anniversary working on the CST...in the usual fashion of celebrating. All-you-can-eat sushi for the mister!

We discussed his job, and I asked him if he still loved it. The last couple months there has been an increase in grumblings because they have been having to work longer hours and also weekends without any additional pay. But, he still loves it, despite all that!

Earlier in the evening when we discussed him being there for a year, I started thinking out loud about all the blessings that have come from his job. Obviously, the material blessings are very abundant. Since he was working, we were able to buy a house, go to Hawaii, go to the Caribbean, buy a new car, and be ready for a baby. There are also other blessings - even more important than those. Our relationship has strengthened as we work together to create a good life for our family. His responsibility level has increased as well as his maturity. This blesses him not only in work, but in school and our overall life. Our friendship with Robby and Lacee means so much, and I am sure it would not have developed to this extent without him and Robby working together. When Lacee and I talk, we realize how good those two really are for each other and I am glad that Zach can have such a good friend and good influence around him daily.

There are always rumors of changes on the team, and they flip flop back and forth of whether it would be in our favor or not. It is helping me put my faith in God's plan for us because there is so much that we don't have control over but it will help define our future. So, whatever is meant to be will happen and we just have to have a good attitude and work hard.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

30 Weeks

That means only ten left. Really, I am almost in the single digits because it's already Wednesday...

Over the last week, baby's kicks changed significantly. They are now a lot stronger and can last longer. There are slow motion ones that slide across my tummy. I feel him in my ribs one second then the next second in the bottom of my belly...pretty interesting sensation! Zach swears he felt a fist one day. I thought "no fair - I haven't felt one yet!" I find myself smiling when he kicks a certain way or particularly strong. I am just so excited everything is going so well and we are going to have a baby!
I'm pretty sure he is getting big, because there is even more pressure on my bladder. Today I spent almost as much time in the bathroom as in my office!
I am feeling really well. I have been very consistent with my gym attendance, and I actually think I am looking more defined and my legs are looking better than a few months ago (thank goodness! - cellulite and I are not friends and I try so hard to prevent any relationship there...) My workouts give me a lot more confidence with dealing with labor, so I plan to keep it up as long as possible to, hopefully, make labor as good of an experience as possible.

A Big Perk of Northern Utah

The seasons!!

One week I am loving on our beautiful maple trees.....

The next week I wake up to this.....

Which results in this.....

Such a wonderful time of year!

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

My Good Samaritan Husband

I don't blog for a bit, then look what happens. I am just full of stories.

This happened while we were test driving the Honda that is now ours.

We had just driven down the street, switched drivers, and were heading back to the house. I turned the corner and saw a man lying on the cement with a small woman and young man standing over him. Remember, it had snowed over the weekend, and there was about a foot of snow in the area we were in. I pointed it out to Zach when I realized it wan't normal and asked if I should stop. He immediately said yes! and went to get out of the car before I had even parked. He ran over to help. I stayed in the car for a minute because I figured the man had simply fallen and with Zach's help they could get him standing and everyone would go on their way. Several minutes later, they had succeeded in getting him standing and halfway to his front door. Someone had brought out a wheelchair, so again, I thought things were going to be fine. I looked back again and the wheelchair had rolled away and the man was back on the ground! I got out of the car and ran over to see what I could help with. They had already called an ambulance and were basically just trying to comfort the man and get/keep him warm. Zach was able to talk to whoever was on the phone and describe his symptoms. We stayed until the fire truck showed up and the ambulance. They took over caring for the man and we headed back to the car-owner's house.

Zach explained the symptoms to me and guessed the man had congestive heart failure. Zach said all of his EMT training didn't kick in, but I am sure that it did because he knew what to look for and how to help. I know I am always talking about how great of a person Zach is, but this is just another thing that I am grateful for. Zach will always be the first to forget about what he is doing or what he had planned to help someone. Not every person is like that, man or woman. Zach is always the gentleman to help others - whether it be opening a door, changing a flat tire, or assisting a man with heart failure who had fallen on cement. He doesn't think twice or hesitate. His goodness constantly is evident in his actions. I am so glad to have such an amazing person as my husband.

Still feeling blessed...

I have a pretty awesome story to tell.

Last week, there was a storm in the forecast. While driving to work in the snow on Friday, I was contemplating our vehicle situation. What are we going to do? I have been somewhat consistently looking at different vehicles -  Honda Accords, Honda Civics, Honda CR-V's, Toyota Camry's, etc.. - but making no progress in the decision making process. Neither of us really wanted a car, but they are so much more economical and Zach basically just needed something to get him to the van pool. The cost of what I was finding was just way too high considering we didn't really want it in the first place. Going cheaper would put us in the situation we were just in - high miles, possible prolonged maintenance, wondering how long it would last. The decision just kept being placed on the back burner because it seemed impossible to make one.

While driving on Friday, I thought "We should just get another 4Runner. We both love it so much and it's not that bad on fuel..." I mentioned the idea to Zach. It turns out he actually thought I was joking, but he liked the idea. I was serious though. He started getting excited, but I told him not to get his hopes up because I hadn't even checked if there was something suitable in our price range.

Sunday rolls around and we are chatting after church about Zach's lesson and the concept of tithing. I expressed my deep gratitude and strong testimony of tithing because I have never had a ton of money, but have always been well provided for. The same is true in our marriage. Zach had some debt when we got married, we both didn't have jobs, or full time jobs, for quite a period, and we have been able to work hard and provide for ourselves and get into a good financial position for our family and our future. As we discussed these things, we talked about how we are always blessed and how we have been blessed making it work with only one vehicle. At this point we decided to check out some listings.

We quickly eliminated the possible 4Runners, mainly because the colors available didn't strike our fancy. Zach mentioned a Honda Pilot, which is what we decided between when we purchased our 4Runner. We pulled them up, and low-and-behold, there were a few decent ones in our price range! We ended up calling on them, and being able to check out both of them that night. We weighed the pros and cons of each and were able to make a decision we both felt comfortable with. Our decision making process has always impressed me. I attribute it to our great relationship as well as Heavenly Father's blessings. Zach and I communicate, are on the same page, and feel good about the decisions we make. It is almost an immediate thing once we get to that point. Zach lets me talk through all the details and doubts and second-guesses, even though we both know what the decision is going to be. The confidence I feel when we make big decisions is such a blessing because I am such a planner and perfectionist, so these decisions have potential to cause me some undue anxiety.

The next day, we took the Honda we picked to the Honda dealership, everything was great, we purchased it, and drove home with a new Honda Pilot! The whole experience was amazing. The man we bought it from was very respectable and took meticulous care of it. We were able to chat with him and some of his family during the purchasing process and they were genuinely good people. The Honda has a third row and is in such good condition that we will be able to use it for our family vehicle for many years. It has 4WD, which is one of the main features we were looking for in a new vehicle. Everything worked out wonderfully, and I can't get over how much Heavenly Father does for us.

I was hoping the following picture would serve a three-fold purpose:
1. To show our new car - because I forgot to take a picture when it was still daylight. It's not the best, I know.
2. To show my belly for the 30 week picture - which really can't be seen hardly at all.
3. To show my outfit. This is significant because a funny story goes along with it. I was commenting on how the color of my coat looks like the carpet in our old house. I hated the carpet but love the coat. It was at this point that Zach realized I looked like a mustard-covered hot dog! He proceeded to call me a mustard hot-dog wife for the rest of the evening. It was quite hilarious because once you realize it, it is hard to not think about a mustard hot-dog. I'm pretty sure I won't ever wear that exact ensemble again...

At least one purpose of the pic was served well.

Feeling blessed

Over the last week or two, Zach and I have been spoiled with more baby stuff. My sweet sweet grandma had a crib delivered to our house. We were outside and Zach saw the box on our porch and asked me if the box was part of my Halloween decorations. I had no idea what he was talking about and ran to check it out. To our surprise, it was crib! So we hauled it inside. My mind immediately started thinking of when to set it up,  where to put it, how to arrange the room, and that we need to start getting things going. A few days later, there was another box on our porch, with another crib from my parents! So, now we have two cribs. We feel so blessed by everyone and their generosity. When I first got pregnant, people would always say how nice and generous people are with your first baby, but I still get surprised and am very grateful when it happens. I just don't ever expect people to go to lengths they do. It is so nice and sweet of them. I feel like I say thank you a million times, but I just can't help it because I really am that thankful.

Monday, November 5, 2012

Baby Shower in SG

A few weekends ago we headed to SG for a baby shower. Both my mom and mother-in-law put it together for me, and I am so appreciative! To be honest, I don't really like showers for myself. I love going to them for other people, but when I am the one of honor, it is always really uncomfortable. I don't want people to think that I had them invited just so they could bring me a gift. I know it is a great way to get started on new phases of life and everyone understands, it is just hard for me. My favorite part of showers is the visiting aspect, and getting to see people you may not have otherwise gotten to see. This shower was great in that a lot of family on Zach's side came, and we were able to visit with each other. Also, my wonderful sister-in-law Amanda flew in from Colorado to come. Some days I get sad that they don't live closer because I love her and wish we had the chance to hang out and visit more!
Everyone was so generous and it was so good to get some experienced input on baby stuff. That may be another favorite thing about showers...that is where you hear the little secrets you don't necessarily read about online.
I was able to catch up with a bball friend from college. Sammi has just had a baby as well. It was great to see how she was doing and get her insight on being a brand new mom. I wish there was more time and opportunities to catch up with old friends!
We also played a shower game I have never heard of. I seriously thought it was hilarious. It was a matching game with words related to pregnancy and whoever found the match got candy that coincided. I won twice with OBGYN in which I got a Butterfinger! And baby poops, in which I got Raisenets. Clever, very clever. :)

I still need to get the pics from my mom....so hopefully I update that later.

Since Amanda and the kids were down, my mom had to plan activities for them as well. She planned a Halloween breakfast and dressed up like a witch to cook and serve them. While she was doing it all, I was imagining what it would be like when there are like six grandkids and everyone got to do it together. I thought that would be just fabulous. My mom and dad are seriously the coolest grandparents.
The day before the shower we were able to go to Staheli farm, which is definitely kid-centered, and let the kids explore the activities and animals. I love places like that - fun atmosphere, outside, festive.

When planning when to go to St. George, we were able to plan the shower for the same weekend that Nate, Tanner, Cameron, and Stan were doing the Tour de St. George. Zach and I made sure to be at the finish line when they all came in! It really made me miss races and get excited to do one next year. Although, I can't say that I want to do a bike race...I definitely think triathlons offer a more exciting atmosphere and a safer course. Plus, I have some running goals I need to accomplish as soon as I am able. Either way, I love the race atmosphere and being around people trying to better their lives by staying fit. I took the picture while we were waiting to at the finish - it makes me laugh because Zach was licking his lips in preparation to smile, so this is what I got. :)

Lisa Marie

This story happened a few weeks ago, and I can't believe I haven't blogged about it! I got home from work one day and was looking at the big pile of mail that had been accumulating all week. Zach always gets our mail (thankfully, because I always forget!) and puts in a pile that I eventually go through. This particular day, I am glancing through and figure it is all the grocery ads and such, when I spot a padded envelope with my name on it. I immediately got that rush of butterflies and excitement that always comes with an unexpected piece of mail that holds some promise of something great inside. I hurriedly checked the return address, that didn't have a name, but I recognized the handwriting and once I saw Davie, FL, I knew it was from my best friend Lisa.
I quickly ripped it open and found inside the most adorable newborn knitted hat. This was before my baby shower and before we really had much for our baby, and I was so excited! It is one of those cute hats you take naked baby pics with. Zach thought it was awesome and tried it on. :) I probably looked at it like twenty times and pictured our little baby wearing it.
In the package, Lisa also included such a touching card that I literally teared up. I am quite sure it was from real emotion and not just pregnancy hormones. Lisa and I have been best friends since 8th grade, which at this point in my life translates to ten years, a full decade! I didn't even realize that until I just counted. We were as close as anyone could be in high school, and have successfully kept in touch ever since. Sometimes that has meant monthly, other times more like yearly, but we have the kind of friendship that time doesn't really affect. Obviously, with life changes our relationship evolves and we probably won't ever have the chance to get cups full of cold cereal and go watch movies all night, but we will always care about each other and be able to chat when life let's us.

Friday, November 2, 2012

Life as we know it.

It's been a minute since I have blogged...and the strange things with that is there has been a lot going on, so I would have had lots to blog about!
Here I am at 27 weeks:
I skipped the 28 week picture. Dang it. It's been busy and by the time I could take a picture, I really didn't want to document how I look - all haggard and worn-out like.

But, pregnancy is going great! I had an appointment on Monday, I was at +30 lbs from pre-pregnancy! Holy kermoli, I have never seen those numbers on a scale before...
I scheduled out my next three appointments. One more 4 weeks out, then I start going every two weeks. It is going by pretty quick now (most days at least)!
Baby is moving around A LOT this week. The kicks are getting harder, and I have felt him up in my ribs a little bit the last couple of days. Nothing is painful yet, so I am loving it. It comforts me that our baby is strong and active. In a way, I feel like we are buddies already because he is constantly reminding me he is there. With that, it keeps it on my mind that I am having a child and am going to be a mom very soon so my excitement level is constantly high.

On other aspects of life:

Zach is getting ready to leave for a week for work. I'm not excited. But, they will be gone a lot next year so I have to start getting re-accustomed to it.
There are some stressors coming from his work - apparently there is a change in the process of commissioning to an officer, and it seems a lot less favorable for us. I sorta had a freak out on Tuesday and worried about our future and what's gonna happen, yada yada yada. I'm sad to admit I took it out on Zach. I was pretty upset. After taking a minute (or ten) to calm down, we were able to chat a little more and relax a little. Thankfully, Zach is a very forgiving person and we are still madly in love. I was able to chalk my reaction up to my pregnancy hormones, my built-up frustration with military ways (which I try to pride myself in handling okay), my extreme planning personality, my stress about money when I quit work and whether I will have to go back, and I'm sure there were some other things I attributed to my reaction.

It just so happens that went down on Halloween night, so as we were trying to talk about those very important things, trick or treaters started coming to our house. This upset me a little more because I have been so excited all year, and I couldn't even answer the door at first because I had tears on my face! But, soon Zach and I were able to welcome our trick-or-treaters together and it was a blast. We added some last minute decor to our front porch, and I dare say it was pretty awesome. Black lights, strobe lights, spider webs. I felt like a bona fide suburbanite. And we had a lot of trick-or-treaters, mostly kids I have seen in Primary.

Pre-awesomeness. I couldn't take a pic of the cool lights because it was dark - obviously.

The day before, we threw our big party at school. I dressed up as a soldier. And yes, although a little big, Zach's uniform pretty much fit. Barely buttoned over my belly. :) Our Halloween party is one of the biggest things my department does each year, and I got to head it up. I definitely had an element of stress throughout the day trying to get everything taken care of, but everything went well! Lots of people came and appeared to stay entertained throughout the whole activity, we had plenty of candy and treats for the games and cookie decorating. My boss and the campus president were very impressed, and I had people the next few days mention how well it went. Those moments really can make me feel good about my work.

Geeking out to Age of Empires.
Last night, Zach and I went on a double date with Robby and Lacee. This was the first double date we have been on in ages, so it was fun to get out and do something. In the last few weeks, Zach and I have been able to go out a little more often and it really is necessary! One night, Zach convinved me to play computer games with him. I was so hesitant and not really in the mood, but it was a blast. Another night, we ended up trying a new restaurant. A mexican place just down the road. It was the first time we have gone to a sit down restaurant in a while and we loved it. The food was good and they even had a military discount. I love dating my sweet and sexy husband. He still makes me feel special when we go out together. He always gets my door, helps me out of the car like a princess, holds my hand throughout the whole night. He is just the best mister in the whole world. He has been working out a lot too, and it shows, and I am lucky to have such a fit and handsome hubster.

Now we have room for festive decor!

We finally bought a kitchen table! I have been wanting to for ages, but we haven't been able to find the perfect one. Last weekend, I had Zach swing by a furniture store just so we could take a look. Thanksgiving is getting close and my parents and Scott will be at our house, so we definitely needed one. Anyway, we found the perfect one. Big purchases are always hard for me and I was all sorts of worried it wouldn't look good or whatever, but once we got it home and set up, I couldn't be happier! It has 4 chairs and a bench seat, as well as a leaf to extend it. It fits in our dining area perfectly and has already made our meals feel better. Our college-dorm stool table just didn't have the homey feel I was looking for. But, good news is that we still get to use the stools at our bar, and one is currently being used as a stand for our one and only houseplant. Quick side note on that - Lindsey asked if we wanted the plant when she was moving, and we said no. But, my mom wanted it, so naturally it would be stored at our house until she could get it. Well, I fell in love with the greenery next to our back door and plan to keep it. This reminds me... I haven't watered it in ages. I better do that today. That's partly why I love it - when I forget to water it, it still looks awesome!

 We are getting excited for the holidays because it means lots of family time, time off work, and closer to the day we get to hold our baby!