"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."

-Henry David Thoreau

Thursday, August 28, 2014

New Words

Terran has been pretty adamant about sticking to just using "mama," points, and grunts to communicate. I was quite certain he knew words and he was doing great at understanding several words and commands. At his 15 month checkup, the doctor said he wasn't too concerned but that I should try to get him to say at least one more word. He pretty much just said mama and dad. I was able to get a random word so I wasn't too concerned. At the 18 Month checkup, they asked if he knew fifteen words....I thought he knew that many, but he definitely didn't consistently use that many. There was the instinct side of me that wasn't worried because he is smart and knows words and there is no issue. But, occasionally there was that part of my brain that would wonder "what if."

Well, yesterday was pretty interesting. When I was holding Terran and he didn't want tho go where I was taking him, he said "down." Then when we were waiting for the microwave he said "beep, beep, beep." We were playing with neighbors and he told a little girl that was standing in his way to "move." And, as we were leaving and waving bye, he said "bye bye." I can't remember when, but he also said "hi" yesterday. These were all words he had never said before, all in the same day! I knew he had it in him! He was just waiting for when he felt like talking.  :)

He also says jump a lot right now, but it isn't the clearest word. He uses it correctly though, so we know that is what he is saying. One day we were at Farm Country and he saw the horses pulling the wagon and said "horse" very clear. He hasn't ever said it again though.

So, even though I had that slight worry, my mother's instinct was right on and Terran just needs to do this on his own time.  :)

Monday, August 25, 2014


I have been thinking so much about my many dreams over the last little bit. I have come to a few realizations.

1: I am currently living a lifetime dream. I am a stay at home mom which is what I have always wanted. I told Zach on one of our phone calls recently (he is in Missouri again for a couple weeks) "thanks for letting me live my dream." He was a little confused but as I explained, the reality of it sank even deeper for me. Even though it is hard, there are so many moments in the day that I know I would miss if I wasn't home with Terran. We couldn't play at the pool, me watching his huge grin and listening to his huge squeal. We wouldn't take our daily naps together, him often waking up and finding me with a huge smile on his face. I wouldn't be able to bring him to visit his grandparents as often and witness the amazing bond he is forming with them. I know I would see a part of these things, but not in the entirety that I get to by being home with him. As I contemplate my other dreams and aspirations I have in this life, this is still number one. I am so glad and thankful that I am able to do it. Zach's support both emotionally and financially makes it possible and that means the world to me.

2: Another dream I have been dwelling on a lot lately is getting more education. I often miss the learning experience I had in college and think of ways to get that back. I feel that as far as actually pursuing a graduate degree, that will wait until at least when my children are in school full time. I know there are things I can do now to continue learning and those are the things I will focus on. In a way, this is a great plan and path because I have been set on becoming a math teacher and maybe a college professor. I still think about that, but I wonder if I will end up going a different route. I think if I wait to pursue that education until I will be able to utilize it, I will have a more sure direction of where I want to go. (I have recently been noticing more and more how much I really like change!)

3: Of my current daydreams, I have been envisioning becoming a pro triathlete. I do not love to admit that to a lot of people because there are so many ways people take that. They may think it is impossible, they may encourage me to do everything it takes to do it, they may not understand, they may scoff, who really knows. The thing is, for me, I truly think I would have the mental and physical capacity to achieve that goal. I have thought a lot about pursuing it lately and have come to a few conclusions. First of all, I don't want to sacrifice the majority of my time with Terran or our other children to achieve it. Also, I don't want to cripple our finances, especially if I have my first reservation. Another concern I have is that we plan to have more children and I don't want to have races dictate that more than what our family dynamic needs. Meaning, I don't want competing to become more important than having a family. But, I have decided that the next best thing that I can do is take the time I already dedicate to exercise and become more efficient to become a better athlete. I want to focus on winning my age group in various races and go from there. This can be done around having children without adding the stress of races, seasons, and qualifications as much. I feel that in the time I already spend, and if I better utilize some of my other time, I can research and exercise at a better level and truly be competitive.

As I have evaluated where I am at and what is important to me, this is what I came up with. I know that my family will always come first. "Me time" is still important and that is why it is still included. I feel I can have the best of all of my dreams by planning around them this way. I am excited for life and what it will bring! :)

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Toddler of the house

Our little man has been on a growing and maturing spree again! For the last month or so he is constantly surprising and impressing me with all that he is learning. He now seems to understand everything I say to him. He helps me dress him and put on his shoes. He tells me when he wants a diaper on and has successfully taken it off a few times. When he decides I can put one on him, he will come over and push his pelvis out to help me put it on!
He has had no problem with going to nursery, which I am very thankful for. It is hard enough on my over-protective, worrying, and controlling motherly side without him crying when I leave! It has been really nice tho go and listen to Sunday School lessons and learn more about the gospel again. We got a teenage babysitter one night and I used our gym day care once, and both times he has done awesome. This may be more of an advancement for me than him, but either way it has been a positive thing for us.
He knows all of his body parts and likes to play the game where I ask where they are and he shows me. He knows a lot of words but has only said most of them once or twice. I'm not quote sure why he is like that because when he says them it is usually really clear, but I am not worried about his speech. With his intelligence and independence I think it is more of a matter of when he decides he wants to talk.
He has started liking to hug his big teddy at night and has even fallen asleep with it.  I quite like it.  He had never liked binkys and hasn't had attachments to toys or blankets, so it is extra cite too see him love it.
One day he took his diaper off and went to the bathroom and pulled up the toilet lid to try and use it. I tried to help him but it didn't work that well. I got all excited and am planning to buy him a training potty soon! I would just love if he potty trained early and wanted to!
He gives kisses more often and some nights has to kiss me several times before he will fall asleep. I love it. :)
After Zach spent a week home with us, Terran seemed to strengthen their bond quite a bit and wandered the house the day he left saying "Dada."
Terran is still as headstrong, independent, and opinionated as ever.  But he also has a lovey side that comes out, he is very playful and loves to play chase and get other kids involved with what he is doing. He is extremely social and loves animals.
I am really enjoying this stage with him and cherishing our time alone before other kids come into the mix. He is my little buddy.

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

5 Year Anniversary

Holy Kermoli, we made it to five years! I had been bugging Zach since our anniversary last year that this needed to be big and fun and amazing since it was our 5-year. We talked about Mexico, Europe, Alaska, Hawaii, cruises, all-inclusives, hikes, shows, you name it!

As time went on and this year got crazy, deep down I knew it wasn't going to happen. But, Zach had requested a whole week off at my request so we decided to just keep the time off and spend some time home together, since that has been so rare this year! It turned out perfect! Terran and Zach finally got some really quality time together and we got to be a family, together every day. It was so great. On our actual anniversary, we got lunch as a family and spent time at the Thanksgiving Point gardens. Neither of us had been there before and it was so beautiful!  Then, we got a non-family babysitter for the first time and went on a date and did a little shopping. We went to an italian restaurant. I didn't like what I ordered so Zach was the perfect gent and traded me entrees. He did it without even thinking, just being a sweetheart! We talked some about our favorite things over the last five years and had some laughs and reminiscing.

Terran did really well with the sitter and we had a good time just being together. It is so much fun to date Zach some again. It has definitely taken us a while since Terran was born, but we are appreciating the time together a lot now.