"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."

-Henry David Thoreau

Friday, July 22, 2016

Terran Tidbits

Kenna is crying and he says "maybe her wants her brother." When she didn't stop crying after he went to her he said, "her doesn't love her brother."

After two really hard days of defiance and crankiness, we were driving home after Foam Day at the park and he looked over at me and flashed the "I love you" sign with a smile. It really was just what I needed.

Heading to bed after watching fireworks: "my think I need a chack (snack). My belly tells me I need a chack."

Terran has told me this a few times (referring to Kenna when he wants my attention and I am nursing her): "Her only has a little belly,  just chop (stop). Chop chop chop!

"Terran...where are you?!" Pause. "In the bathroom." "What are you doing?" Pause..."come see!" "Are you being naughty?" "No!....Come see!" He was sitting in the full sink, bubbles wverywhere. I asked why he got in and he said he was cold.

Monday, July 18, 2016

My Social Media Resolution

Zach and I often discuss social media and the impact it has had on society. Although there are some positives, we generally think the negatives outweigh the positives. I have tried to distance myself from it numerous times, am always happy with the results, and then for some reason I return. It is a habit more than anything I think.

Tonight, I read an article (on social media, ironically), that encouraged moms to enjoy the little things more, written by a mom that had lost her four year old in a car accident. I cried. I thought of how heartbreaking that would be, and I thought of Terran's fits, whiny-ness, and desire to have a constant playmate. I believe the fits and whiny-ness are a cry for more undivided attention. I thought of his pure delight and utter happiness when I donned a superhero cape with him and fought bad guys in the basement. I thought how those kind of moments are so much more important and meaningful than the status updates and pictures of other people's lives that consume my time when I am on social media.

I thought of the baby books I want to create, the photo albums of vacations I want but have never done. I realized that my time is already stretched thin, with meal-planning and laundry, building Lego towers and calling the washing machine repair guy. I don't get enough sleep daily, but I get caught up on other people's lives daily. I am constantly coming across new recipes and creative things for kids to do, but I don't incorporate them nearly enough.

As I continued down this road of reflection, I remembered that I fail to read my scriptures, and considered that if I take my habit of pulling up Instagram or Facebook and instead read a few verses of scripture, my daily life would improve.

All of these thoughts and more led me to the conclusion that time with my children would be better spent without a screen in my face. My day to day life would be better if I greatly eliminated social media. Because there are positives, I think that once a week would be sufficient time to benefit from the positives and help eliminate the negative. I can focus my mind and my fifteen minutes here or there on more inspiring and important matters.

What I want is a life where I do not have regrets with how I raised my kids, I do not feel like I could have done a better job. Some may say that is impossible, but I think the small choices I make each day can make it possible. Screen time and social media contribute way too much fuel to the self-doubt, comparisons, and wasted time that causes those regrets and makes people think they aren't doing good enough. And to be honest, it not only makes people feel that way, it makes it true. If we are spending time and energy on things that don't matter when our children need us (and I believe their "needs" include non-distracted play, acknowledgement of accomplishments, and true interest in their moments), then we aren't doing as good of a job as we could. My kids are my world, they deserve to feel like it and believe that. From this day on, I strengthen my resolve to limit my social media to be a better mom.

Sunday, July 17, 2016

Bits and pieces

Terran asks me every time we get a package if it sayd "Terran White" on it. I decided to get a package just for him. He was so excited to get it off the porch since he knew it was for him. I got him superhero capes and he has loved having them!

We took Terran to a pond to fish. His patience with the fish lasted about five minutes. But, he loved the sticks and the water, the ducks and the mud.

Kenna has been a tad bit fussy, but she loves the outdoors so I often take her outside and she calms right down. We have been able to incorporate her into our every day life quite easily.

We were ready for church before Zach and I had Kenna wrapped up in my wrap. She was pretty tired so I didn't want to wake her up and put her in the car seat. So, we decided to walk to church while Dad finished getting ready. Terran went as Batman with a sword. After church he decided he wanted to hold sis, but didn't want a picture.

Friday, July 15, 2016

One month

Miss Kenna Rose

She is a sweet little thing. I have taken a much more relaxed approach with her, more so than Terran, and it has been working out wonderfully. 
She mostly sleeps and eats.  She is not fan of a poopy diaper and she screams about diaper rash. 
She grins often, though it's not concious yet. Her hair looks like it is balding, but I believe it is actually blond coming through underneath. Time will tell for sure. 
She has two little dimples above her top lip on each side of her mouth. I love when they shine through.
She likes to kick off my belly and already has a strong neck. She likes to pull back and look at my face. 

I try to cherish every minute with her because each day goes by too quickly and she is constantly changing. My days are busy so each time I get to sit down and just hold her I do not take for granted.

Fourth of July

Another wonderful holiday spent with Mom and Dad. We had burgers at Salt City then went and hiked Silver Lake. After that, we went home and Zach set off fireworks with Dad and Terran. Our surrounding area neighbors do a ton of fireworks so that evening we hung around outside watching the panoramic show.