"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined."

-Henry David Thoreau

Tuesday, November 7, 2017


We had a butterfly and Master Chief from Halo running around this year! We had our traditional soup and bread bowls with the Freeman's, then headed trick or treating. Terran took off with his friends and their dad and it took us a while to catch up to him! He was literally running from house to house and since he took off before I could check him, he has no socks with mismatched boots and ended up with a blister. He came home and wanted to hand out candy, then got Dad to take him out again!
Kenna bug was much more into the festivities than I anticipated. She loved looking at the decorations and wanted to trick or treat at every door.

We also did a ward party and Terran's preschool parade and he soaked it all up. After Halloween he woke up and after we cleaned up the decorations, he asked if the real Halloween was over. I explained how it was and what else we have to look forward to for the year.

Friday, October 27, 2017


Terran was on a neighborhood soccer league this year. I kept checking with all the sports, but they were always kindergarten and up. Turns out the one I didn't check, soccer, is actually younger and I could have signed him up, but then I was too late. A last in our neighborhood organized a beginner level leader for her kids and we were able to join.

It was a blast watching Terran get into it his first day. He scored two goals and was really intent on being goalie. As the season progressed, he got progressively upset at each game if he didn't get to kick it every time. We dealt with a lot of him running off the field crying because he didn't get to do what he wanted. The first night he was with the older kids and seemed to do much better than when he was later separated with the younger kids he struggled more. On the bright side, he was quite competitive and could really get into it. He is definitely attic and not afraid of conflict so it was fun to watch.

I was asked up help coach a few games in. I'm sure it was quite a sure with me toting Kenna, instructing kids, trying to calm Terran, and then having my bit on top of it all! I was able to run in my competitiveness, but I know as he agrees that I'll have to keep working on that!

Even though we need to teach more about basic skills and sportsmanship, I do believe Terran will love sports as he grows!

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Fall activities

One of the reasons I truly enjoy living in Northern Utah is because we get to experience seasons. I do wish we could trade a few months of winter for a longer Autumn, but I suppose one can't have everything. Fall is great with kids because the weather is perfect. Not too hot, but usually not too cool either. This year has been a little colder than usual. But, there are also numerous activities pertaining to the season and holidays as well as gorgeous leaves in the mountains. When it feels like fall is giving way to colder weather, I'm always sad it has gone by too quickly.

Saturday, October 14, 2017

St. George Marathon and my injuries

Well, all year my marathon plans kept derailing so why let it stop with St. George?! My plans for the Ogden marathon were thwarted with a hamstring injury, while being treated for cuboid syndrome. I proceeded to do physical therapy for my hamstring while planning on the Big Cottonwood marathon. Between work schedules and family reunion plans at Rehoboth, I had to pull out of Big Cottonwood, putting all of my eggs on the St. George basket, which was previously supposed to be a fun race with Amanda as she did get first full. Instead, I put my goal of Boston Qualifying on it and went to work. It seemed like quite a struggle to fit in the runs, rehab an injury, and do it on much less than ideal sleep, often while single parenting. But, I was proud of myself, feeling fit, met new friends, and started nailing my paces. My second twenty miler I felt my knee and foot hurting, but figured it was because it was twenty miles. Then I proceeded to get through my long runs with the pain and some weekday runs as well. My 21 miles in Provo canyon were great going up, but around mile 13 I didn't know how is get back to the car. I struggled through, like really struggled, and finished, again feeling proud. I tapered, got sick, rested like crazy, and went into the race quite optimistic but prepared for disappointment. If been talking my for and that seemed to help, still doing PT for my hamstring and it seemed nearly healed, and I had some quick stuff the last two weeks that feeling great.

I went to packet pickup with Amanda and we had a fun time getting excited for the race. Race morning was great as I saw many friends and was pumped for the challenge ahead. Started feeling good with the goal of getting to Mike 13 on pace, then really giving it my all for a 3:30 time.
I started feeling the pain around mile 4, but stayed optimistic as I fought through the hills. Mostly my knee was hurting but my foot pain was there as well. I got up Veyo, just barely ahead of pace. I kept pushing it and pulling back when necessary, saw Alaina and Chloe for a boost, then suffered through a few more. Around 12.5 I slowed briefly, which caused the pain to greatly increase. I fill on had to stop. Not sure what I could do with more than half the race left, I messaged and limped and thought it through. I was able to run a bit and realized it hurt worse if I rested. So after losing a few minutes trying to figure out my course of action, all while barely being able to walk, I put it in great and ran 7:07s for two miles to try to stick with the pace I wanted and got it out. The second I slowed, I almost collapsed again! Hardly putting weight on, I called Mom and Dad to see where they were. The were a few miles up and I fully planned on getting in their car, I didn't know if I could even make it to them. I figured out a walk with my leg angled out that hurt the last and trudged on. They found me and walked with me for a bit. Their words and support butter me and I decided to continue walking, wait for Amanda, and try to keep with her to run in a bit slower. She came and I couldn't even run with her for 10 feet! I told her to go and spent the next several miles walking and chatting with others who seemed to want to chat. I embraced my circumstance and enjoyed those last six miles, high fiving kids, encouraging others, laughing with others, and interaction with the cheerers. Mom and Dad found me again, Mom ran by me as somehow I was able to run in the last couple miles, stopping intermittently to give it a break. I saw Zach and the kids and ran into the finish smiling. As I stopped I wondered if I have it my all that day and i knew I did. I'm so glad I didn't quit as I have realized quitting once makes quitting again and again easier. Although I'll need to train all over again for that BQ, I'm proud of that finish, my slowest yet, 4:29.

Turns out I had IT band syndrome that was causing my knee pain and a stress fracture in my foot. My neuroma is still there, and my podiatrist treated it, but after a second opinion, it has been determined that wasn't causing the pain and didn't need to be treat but the stress fracture was there and causing my pain. I'm currently at 5 weeks without running, I'm losing fitness, but trying to heal my body. Here's to hoping everything recovers well, I can get back to running happily and at fast speeds, and I can embrace and continue to incorporate more cross training. Oh how I love exercise and fitness and a little break just helps reinforce that.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Summer half marathons

Drop 13 Half: I got to pace this race with Ammon. We had the two hour time slot and it was a blast. We got to chat with many people, but we had two stick with us until about mile ten when they pushed on ahead. The course was a tad short so I was disappointed when we came in a little early at 1:58:20. It was a gorgeous course and I enjoyed pacing.

Timp Half: This was my main focus for half marathon this summer. I was using it as a strategically placed half before Big Cottonwood, but then I pulled out of Big Cottonwood so I was just hoping to have a great run and see where I was at. It definitely wasn't the best as far as how it went. My ipod didn't charge the night before, one of my headphones weren't working, and I had to GI trouble miles 10-12. But, I estimated I'd finish around 1:40 beforehand, ran by feel, and finished in 1:40:15. That course is at the top of my list for favorites because it's close, it's gorgeous, it's fast, and they have pizza at the end.

Parowan Half: I was in New Harmony and offered to pace this last minute since I was in town. I was on standby until the night before and they didn't need someone anymore, but they gave me a slot anyway! I got to race, and since it was the week after Timp I didn't have high expectations. The course had been changed due to flooding and fires, and it was much more challenging than advertised. I was able to struggle through and ended up with a 1:50. It was really fun to run in a tiny Town and experience the town getting involved with the race. I finished four more miles after to complete a long run for marathon training. I ran along the course and chatted with the last racers and it was fun getting to talk with them.

Run Elevated Half: I found a discounted bib for this race and decided to run it as part of a twenty miler. I had a few neighborhood runners who were doing it so I got to meet up with them and we ended up running together a lot. I like this group of ladies because they are fun to chat with and they challenge me. They pulled ahead as we neared the canyon mouth and I dug deep to try and stay close. I was somewhat hoping for a PR but hadn't planned on it or trained for it. I did a few miles before and after so I figured that also limit PR possibility. I came in at 1:36:45, 1:31 off of my PR and I was happy with that as I put forth my near best effort while still trying to be smart with my marathon training.

I truly enjoy the half distance and was happy to mark a bunch off my list this year. I ran a half April-August and really would have loved to keep the trend going if I didn't have full marathon plans to work around.

Rehoboth Beach

We all got to go to Rehoboth Beach for a family reunion. We missed Jenny, but Dave, Burt, Bop, and then the rest of us all were able to make it. My previous two times at Rehoboth were flawless and I really love that place. The kids were in heaven at the beach and once the cousins showed up, Terran was completely entertained! I got in a few beautiful runs out in Cape Henlopen and the Zach joined us on Tuesday. He was busy with activities that I couldn't bring the kids on so we didn't see each other much and then the stomach flu hit. It swept through every single person. It was crazy. We didn't get to do much as a family of four, but we got to enjoy the company of the rest of our family immensely.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

8 Year Anniversary

We left the kids with Grammy and Poppy and spent the night in St. George to celebrate 8 years of being married. We did the Kanarraville hike, had benjas for lunch, and went to Tuacahn to see Mamma Mia. The next morning after breakfast we went up on Dixie Rock and reminisced about the start of us. It was so good to spend time together and reconnect without any other responsibilities.

Monday, August 28, 2017

First Day of Preschool

Terran started preschool today! I was torn last year, decided I still wanted more time with him and he didn't need it yet, then in January his maturity seemed like school would be a good thing so I knew this fall starting would go well. I signed him up for a preschool, then we registered for Upstart, an at home, 15 minute a day online school, and then he got in to the literacy center preschool. I knew I didn't want him doing all three. So, after a few days of stressing and thinking pros and cons, I decided to keep him in upstart and do the literacy center, which only goes until January, when he will go to the other preschool I have him enrolled in. Once I decided, I was happy with that!  Two days a week was nice because I still want to spend time with him doing activities before that is gone forever! I realized once he starts kindergarten next year, he will be in school until he is an adult! I just love spending time with him so I'm glad I can enjoy it a little longer.

He woke up this morning in and I reminded him that it was time to get ready for school. He excitedly ran to his room to get dressed.  When it was time to do his hair, he chose flat and not spiky. We listened to "Thunder" by Imagine Dragons because that is his favorite song. We had time to spare so we played baseball outside before we headed to school. I signed him in and he got his name tag. We were surprised to find out that his friend Brigham is there too, although they are in different groups. I noticed Terran was getting nervous the longer I was there so I told him I loved him and headed out. He waved goodbye and gave me the "I love you" sign. When I picked him up, he was excited to show me what he made! I'm excited for him to enjoy this new stage.

Hiking all summer

Zach is planning on applying to the DEA. When we decided that, we discussed the probability of moving away from here and never coming back. I decided that I wanted to do a lot of what Utah had to offer so when we didn't live so close anymore I didn't regret that I took it for granted. The downside of this approach to the summer is I have found so many things I love about Utah, I'm not sure I want to leave anymore!!!

Terran has been an extremely good little hiker this summer and Kenna bug does really well in the carrier. She is almost done staying in it the whole time though because she wants to walk and explore now too, so next summer might look a little different! We have done so many fun hikes. I have a few more in mind before winter sets in!

The Grotto
Rocky Mouth Waterfall
Big Springs Hollow
Stewart Falls
Stewart Falls with Lacey
Cecret Lake with Allie
Cecret Lake
Lisa Falls
Lower Bell Reservoir

Monday, July 10, 2017

One year old!!

Kenna loves playing peek-a-boo! She gives good wrap-her-arms-around-you hugs. She especially loves her Poppy and is a Mama's girl.

Dumpster diver.

Working on getting rid of her morning nap.

I've been getting her to fall asleep in her crib, but tonight she wouldn't settle, so I was rubbing her back and she sat up and put her arms around my neck and pulled herself into my arms. Even though it was counter productive, I loved it.

Says ma, da, hi, bye, dog, cat.

Camping at Kents Lake

Brad's family came out this summer and we went with them and Mom and Dad to Kent's Lake to camp for a couple days. I bought kayaks before we left so we would have them for the trip and I'm so glad we did. The kids loved playing on them! It was a campground we had never been to and it was fun to go somewhere new. The cousins had a blast climbing trees and playing hide and seek. It was super hard with Kenna because she wanted to walk everywhere, but it was slanted and unstable so I had to be with her constantly.

We really love camping and hope it gets easier and we can go a little note when the kids are a tad older.

Friday, June 2, 2017

Car crash

Totaled the Pilot. I ran a red light while trying to listen to Zach and calm Terran down in the back. It didn't register that the light was red until I saw the Suburban coming into the intersection. I slammed on my brakes but she still hit me.

Turns out, it all was good. Biggest thing, nobody got hurt. I think we got more for our car than we would if we had tried to sell it. It forced us to get a new car, so now we wouldn't have two that are more than a decade old.

Terran had opinions about what car we got as a replacement.

Terran said, this time let's buy a race car. And it will be his. But mom will drive it since he can't but it will be his.

We looked at a white minivan and when we went back to look at a gray one (Zach insisted on the gray), he was insistent that we get the white. So I told him it was a batmobile that Batman dropped off there. It took some work but it convinced him that we got the cool one. Now we are in the minivan stage of life!

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Ogden half marathon

Long story about the Ogden marathon...I've wanted to do it for a long time so I decided to sign up just for a fun and refresher race to remind my body what a marathon feels like to prep for Big Cottonwood where I am trying to qualify for Boston this year. I've always heard it was pretty and was really excited to race it. My left hamstring started giving me trouble in February, and working with a PT to fix that and a cuboid syndrome on my left foot, I trained through the injuries. Zach was gone 3 out of the 4 months and I was proud after each long run. However, my hamstring wasn't getting better and since the big goal was this fall, I decided after my last 20 miler (hurt at 8 miles, decided to stop at 11, walked until 15.6) that I was going to run the half. After a lot of back and forth, deciding not to run at all, then deciding to still run the half, I ended up heading to Ogden by myself. We had a non-refundable hotel room and Zach supported me in thinking a night away would be nice. Although surrounded with stress over Kenna handling it well and stress over my hamstring, it was a wonderful getaway where I could just worry about myself for once.
Brock Johnson found me in the bus lines so we rode up together and hung out until the start. My plan was to run conservatively and enjoy the scenery, planning to walk as soon as my hamstring hurt. By mile 7 I decided to start alternating walking with jogging. I'm glad the course was so amazing because it is hard to slow down in a race. I took a few selfies and video called Zach and the kids to show them the race and waterfall to force myself to continue ur to be smart. I was able to run into the finish with a girl completing her first half when she ran up by me and said she wanted to stick with me to the finish. I finished in 2:11, my official slowest half, but I enjoyed the whole race. It's easily my favorite half. Brock cheered me in at the finish and we hung around to see our friends doing the full coming in. I was able to cheer Shannon on as she reached the BQ we both set our sights on this year. I loved my time to do something I love and although I was sad my full training didn't come to a full marathon finish, I know I made the better decision and have wonderful memories to go with it.

Thursday, May 18, 2017

11 months

Little Miss has started complaining loudly when Terran stops her, or takes her toys. She recently started saying DaDaaa and is so loud about it sometimes. She definitely communicates with us, just with noises instead of words. She understands words as well. She has started getting attached to stuffed animals and looks for them when we go to her room for nap. She still eats really well and I enjoy that blessing every day. However, she has developed tastes and also learned how to spit things out. So even if I get it in, she can just slip it right back out. It's usually less about flavor and more about mood.
When Mommy is around, she is a hard core nurser, but recently did ok overnight with just Zach and pumped bottles.
Her little personality is shining through strong these days. She is very happy and playful, and loves mischievous chase games. Ex: trying to get to the edge of the bed before we stop her, or the treadmill, or playing on the playset.
She started walking about a week after turning 11 months and gets better every day.

Monday, April 24, 2017

Southern Utah Half Marathon

Back in the racing world! I was planning to pace the Southern Utah half marathon but got a free entry a few days before and was able to cover my pacing spot. I wasn't sure what to expect since I had been planning to run at a 9:55 and wasn't sure what I was capable of. I've had a hamstring injury for months now and it has limited my speed work. I went in to it wanting to go fast and be in the 1:50 range. But, since time was not really that important, I ran by feel. It was hard, but great! Amanda was running as well. I started out fast on the downhill and kept checking on her because I thought she could have a fast race. I saw her not too far back around mile seven and decided to wait for her at mile nine. The last few miles were tough but fun as we pushed to stay ahead of the 1:50 pacers. She pulled ahead after a little sprint to stay ahead and I let her go because my hamstring was feeling it. I joined up with a lady with about half mile left and pushed each other in to the finish. I threw up.... First time right after a race but I didn't really get a good breakfast and my fueling wasn't the best. Overall, I completely enjoyed the course and loved the weather. I liked running fast and I ended up with a 1:49, Amanda's got 1:48 as a new PR!

Sunday, April 9, 2017

10 months

Kenna bug is so fun. She is trying hard to walk, but doesn't quite trust herself yet, so she always reaches for Mom's hand. She has learned to spit with her lips and is good at spitting things out that shouldn't be in her mouth, or food she doesn't want! Terran is her favorite person and she always wants to be around him. Mom is her snuggle bug and Dad is her special person she always lights up to.
She has started getting fiesty if you try to take something from her. She tries to get Terran going and the other night in the tub was extremely successful. She would squeal and splash, then wait for him to. He would. Back and forth, louder and louder. I finally had to just plug my ears and let them because they were laughing so hard!
She loves to sleep with Mom and screams bloody murder of you put her in her crib.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

St. Patty's Day

I was really excited about St. Patty's Day this year. One night for our bedtime story, I pulled up a YouTube video of a lady reading a leprechaun book. I'd been wanting to get some from the library but hadn't yet and that popped into my head. Terran was surprisingly into it. It explained how leprechauns can't help but get into mischief, even on the way to put a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. It was cute and set a base for us to talk about leprechauns for a few weeks. We were at my parents' visiting Lindsey, so I told Terran I thought the leprechauns would find us there. And they did! They tissue papered the hallways so Terran had to break through on his way out. They peed green in the toilet and left little footprints. Zach and Terran built a leprechaun trap the night before to try and catch him, but he used his magic to get out of the trap. He left treats behind for Terran though. His little footprints escaped through the kitty door. Terran followed them all the way and tried to find out where the leprechaun disappeared to. He was excited and explained what happened to me over and over!
This might be one of my new favorite holidays!

Monday, March 13, 2017


We followed Daddy down to Moab for his work to. He had just gotten back from two months in Missouri and we all didn't want to be apart again.

I showed Terran the hotel pool online before we left, and that was all he could think about. Upon arriving, he took Zach the straight away and they played for more than an hour. Zach said it was special hanging out with him when he was so happy and having so much fun. Terran asked to go multiple times each day, even though it was still a little cold. He was so excited we let him get in the hot tub! He also tried out new water tricks of going under with his mouth and nose covered and giving me a thumbs up. Looks like summer time should be a blast!

We went to Arches National Park one morning. Kenna was sleeping and Terran was begging to go back to the hotel and swim, but I convinced him to enjoy the park with me by letting him ride in the front seat and sharing my box of Bottlecaps. We stopped at a few cool landmarks, then got to where we could hike to some arches. We were the some of the first ones there, the sun came up while we were exploring, and it was a perfect morning. We enjoyed seeing rabbits and birds, and Kenna liked crawling around and trying to eat rocks. Terran tired out about 400 yards from our last arch, so stopped in the middle of the trail for an impromptu picnic. He didn't want to walk (his legs hurt, which is what he said all the time when he doesn't want to do something!) And Kenna no longer wanted to ride in the carrier, so Terran ride in the carrier in my back while helping with the backpack, and I held Kenna up front. It was hard!! We got a lot of comments on the way back about how I had a heavy load. There were two different guys who offered to help me, but I declined knowing full well my kids wouldn't let anyone else carry them! There were some truly beautiful scenes and I was so glad I made the effort to go.

One night we had a grocery store dinner in our hotel room, where we shared a rotisserie chicken with sides and berries and salad. Zach said I went full savage on him by eating with my fingers, but I was starving and the kids weren't going to wait or use a fork anyway!

The next day we went to a dinosaur place called Moab Giants. They had a playground and a dinosaur trail with life size replicas of probably a hundred dinos. They had signs telling of the subsidies so everyone I would check and Terran would guess if they were herbivores or carnivores. Then he would say whether or not they eat people. He lived digging in the sand looking for bones, as did Kenna. She was filthy but liked letting the sand fall through her fingers.

We were so happy to get to see Dad in the evenings, and he was so glad we came. He had missed his little kids so much while he was away, so it was extra fun watching him play with them!

Saturday, March 11, 2017

Terran Tidbits

Terran helped me set out water for one of my long runs. At the second drop he asked "are you really going to run this far?" I replied yes. He said "I don't think that you are."

Me: "Why do I love my kids so much?"
Terran: "Me and Sister? Well, Sister likes you and I like you."
Me: "Why?"
Terran: "Because you have cool dance moves."

Twice today Terran has yelled at me saying, "Fix your attitude!"

Saturday, February 18, 2017

9 months

Kenna started waving bye to Daddy on the phone. Blew me away! She was mostly just mimicking him but I didn't realize that she could comprehend all that!

Sister bug loves to dance. Once she hears anything resembling music, her little body starts moving!

Kenna is a little pincher. Every nursing session and when we are just hanging around her little forefinger finds some sensitive skin and starts pinching.

Her sleep habits are less than desirable, but her eating habits are great, as far as variety is concerned.

Kenna has evolved to be quite the Mama's girl. Cries when I leave the room or if someone else holds her. If she does venture off, she visually checks in with me often.

She can pull herself to standing, crawls everywhere, loves to walk with someone helping her balance, and misses her brother when he isn't around.

Saturday, February 11, 2017

8 Months

Kenna is on a big learning curve right now! She just figured out crawling, responds to individuals voices, pats Terran on the head or strokes him to wake up.

She has evolved to be a Mama's girl even though I try to let others hold her and such so she doesn't cry if I hand her off. She still does. She is in a 98% hands on stage because she is Craig, pulling herself up on stuff, getting opinions and wants, and just plain doesn't want to be left alone much. She is ticklish in her ribs and I can almost always get smiles and laughs from her! She strokes Daddy's face on the phone when we FaceTime.

She is growing up so fast and though I'm exhausted, I'm so full of love!

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Terran tidbits

I'm going to the bathroom and I heard him say "na na now you have to kiss me! ...ill kiss you" to Kenna.

Sister crawled on Terran and he yelled " we have a serious problem!"

We got home from the grocery store and a bunch of kids were playing nerf war out front. Terran was just sitting out there eating gum as I brought Kenna in (she was sleeping) then I heard him run in and rummage through his stuff and I just knew he was going to join in the battle..  by the time I got out, he was in the thick of it.

Lovingly stroking Kenna's hair - "you little fuzzy head!"

I asked Terran to help me fed Kenna. He obliged. He went to her and said in a higher pitched voice "here is your lunch sister."

Sunday, January 8, 2017

Four year old Terran

Terran picked to do his 4th birthday at Hang Time, a trampoline park! It was an awesome idea and we were really excited. The day came and Terran helped himself to a cupcake and the party favor candy while I showered, and I knew the day held a few meltdowns because of it. He actually did quite well, but kept wanting to ditch his friends so he could open presents! It was fun and lots of moms came, who I'm friends with, so we all got to visit. Sadly, Zach was in Missouri for SLC or it would have been even better. My parents came up the next day to celebrate Terrans actual birthday with us and that was so great to celebrate him all over again. He was beyond happy to have them there to be his playmates.

Terran is maturing rapidly lately. Zach and I have noticed his vocabulary has been expanding quite a lot. He understands so many things now and has developed a curiosity about how things work and why they are the way they are. In the past few months, we have discussed heaven and death, and one of his favorite topics is earth and space. Concepts that feel hard to explain but he loves to ask about them. He isn't interested in sitting and reciting letters or numbers, it almost seems that he gets bored with it really quickly. However, recently he surprised me with knowing more shapers and letters than I realized. He simply doesn't want to recite the A,B,Cs. He is extremely capable of making his own decisions and does not take the idea of "because mom said so" seriously. He counteracts when I say that I am the boss with telling me that he is actually the boss. He has and uses attitude to get his way and to make a point. He often says "I do whatever I want to." Obviously, I'm constantly working on teaching him respectful and correct behavior, and also trying to determine how hard to fight back with him as he has quite the determination in the ways of his mind. He is quick to meltdown, particularly if he is in need of food or rest, but he can have the time of his life in most situations if he decides that he wants to. He is not of fan of strangers talking to him and definitely chooses which adults he cares to talk to.
Terran is extremely observant, whether it be that I moved his picture on the fridge or noticing the child next to him at the train show that had trouble seeing. He is very very good with Kenna and Brooklyn, as well as other smaller children and send to really enjoy playing with them. He also plays with the ten year old boys in our neighborhood. Although he isn't overly friendly to grown ups, he loves children and playmates. I have watched him walk down the street to his friends and several of the neighborhood kids will call to him by name to say Hi. He is fun loving and headstrong, extremely handsome and opinionated. He is a picky eater, refusing food if it has a brown speck or does not look right (tonight his broccoli was squished and he refused it), but I will say he has been open to at least trying a few more things the last little while.

Though this age has by far been the hardest for me, I feel it is a mixture of him wanting more attention since I have to care to Kenna often, and him discovering his personality and learning what is acceptable and not. I am trying different things to try to keep a peaceful home, but sometimes he responds to yelling and anger so much quicker that it has become way too constant in our home. I never want to squash his unique personality so I'm working on finding a balance to teach him good values and still letting him be himself.

Again, things have been rough, but he is continually changing and I know this year has a lot in store for four year old Terran.


Terran never really went to nursery consistently or on his own, so I was a bit apprehensive about how he would feel about becoming a Sunbeam in Primary.

I tried to prep him some through the week by talking about it more, I sang him the Sunbeam song, and we saw the Sunbeams from the other ward waiting for their parents and I explained how I would be there to pick him up when he was done.

We were the first ones in the room because we stepped out of sacrament early, but I showed him where he would sit and he discovered the microphone and was super happy about it. As kids started to trickle in, I hovered a little, then kissed him goodbye. He kissed me but seemed a little sad. He didn't ask to come with me or ask me to stay though. I was tempted to stick around but thought it would be better for him to do it by himself.

I had multiple people tell me how great he did, he sat in his chair the whole time, and when I went to pick him up, he was radiant! He was so excited to see me and tell me things that it made me feel so good inside! So much worry about the little guy and he did great. I feel like he is ready for something a little more so this was good timing. I think it will lead him into preschool really well. He is growing up right before my eyes!

Saturday, January 7, 2017

Date with Terran

My one on one time with Terran has greatly diminished so I wanted to go on a date with him before Zach left. I'd like to do it more when Zach comes home as well because I think it's a good opportunity to teach them how to treat a lady and to have fun together just him and me.

We went to Scheels to ride the Ferris Wheel. He was as exuberant as ever while we waited in line, and once on he loved it! He kept exclaiming how we were going to the top and how it was fun! It made me really really want to take him to Disneyland because I think he would have a blast!

After the ride, he rode the escalators too! We stumbled upon a play area I didn't know was there, then we lucked him out a new red shirt, checked out the aquarium they have there and got ice cream.

I'm the kind of mom that worried how Zach and Kenna were doing while we were gone, but I tried to focus on Terran and just have a good time with him. His youthful happiness and finding fun all over the place was good for me to watch. It was nice to see him happy pretty much the whole time because he has been a bit moody lately.

I love my little bugger and look forward to a lot more dates with him.

Monday, January 2, 2017

7 months

Standing for a few seconds.
Hit a development stage where she learned to click her tongue, touch fingers together, reach for people.
Trying to crawl but still can't stand her stomach.
Says mama.
Smacks her lips to get my attention when I'm holding her but not looking at her.
Loves food and water and ice.
Still nurses to sleep and loves to snuggle me in bed.
Nobody else can rock her or put her to sleep. She has become a bit of a Mama's girl.
Needs more entertainment to stay content, either toys or people playing with her.
Always has to find Dad if she hears his voice.
Will play and snuggle with Terran, and it makes her happy!